The lesson I’ve extracted from this weekend is to release the pain. We can’t hold on forever. There comes a moment – sometimes it’s a symbolic moment – when it’s not only okay, but it’s the absolute perfect moment to let go.
We are in San Diego for the weekend with some friends to celebrate the life of a good friend and join together to recognize the 1-year anniversary of his passing. In doing so, we are releasing him and letting go of the pain of losing him. Symbolically, in a casual ceremony-like gathering, we set free dozens of live butterflies in memory of Pat. That beautiful, unifying moment was so healing.
Enjoying a brief mini-break this weekend after enduring a rougher than average week is just what I needed to clear my head. I have too much stuff bouncing around in this noggin of mine, accompanied by lack of direction and not enough focus. Getting out of my element allows me to dream and play again; my two favorite pastimes that I’ve all but forgotten how to enjoy recently.
The lesson of letting go went straight to my core. I’ve been holding onto the pain of our lives being torn apart. There have even been times recently when I felt paralyzed. That’s the pain of loss. Well I’m tired of hurting, and I crave to move forward and push through it. Essentially it’s time to suck it up and Get Busy Living. I feel like I made huge emotional progress this weekend. Thanks Pat!
Nick brought his new water legs to San Diego and tried them out yesterday in the hotel pool. The test swim was brief because it was cold and the pool was crowded. He was given a “waterproof” sleeve that slides from mid-socket (mid-calf) up above his regular liners (mid-thigh) to keep water from getting in the sockets. It turns out their definition of waterproof differs greatly from ours. His liners and socks were soaked after he got out. We can’t quite figure this one out… how come they’re not waterproof? Will be calling the prosthetist on Tuesday.
Enjoying life again. I’ve missed this feeling.
Nick Fener 