It’s a darn shame that our society only highlights and promotes gratitude one day a year, and that day usually consists of over indulging anyway. Gratitude should be practiced daily, not yearly. Because of Nicks accident I’ve been steadily practicing gratitude every single day for six months, and it feels good. So today was really no different than any other day in that respect. But certainly more significant than years past. Ever since I can remember, I’ve never been a big fan of holidays in general, particularly Thanksgiving, but this year was different. After this huge ordeal with Nick I’ve grown much closer to his family and further from my own. Going home to Sandee’s house for Thanksgiving dinner today actually felt like “going home”, a feeling long forgotten or maybe never even known. For the first time ever I even contributed to the feast by baking a special sweet potato dish. This was really a unique experience I tell you.
What I am most grateful for: my health (body, mind and soul); sharing my existence with the love of my life Nick Fener; the human experience of connecting and enjoying life with friends, family and animals; my positive attitude toward life; both the subtle and significant beauty all around me that is Mother Earth; my ability to have a meaningful and soulful connection with God without the confines or influence of religion; and the gift from India called yoga.
It’s funny how quickly perspective shifts when you almost lose it all. A year ago I was probably most thankful for Nick, my friends, skydiving and the pursuit of happiness. Well, I guess not much has changed, I just see everything a little different now. Situationally, I am clearly and undoubtedly most grateful for the physical, mental and financial support from our friends and family, near and far. If it wasn’t for the generosity of everyone in our lives we would be in serious trouble right now. The last six months were not easy, but with several hundred amazing people lifting us up and literally supporting us, we have made it this far. There is no way we could be so strong, healthy or positive without all the help we’ve received. We both know we haven’t been able to express the depth of our gratitude yet, and that many people who have helped us haven’t even received a formal thank you. We’ve got a lot of work on our hands if we are ever going to make right this situation, but please, please, just know our thanks are earnest and infinite. I thank you friends, with everything that I am, for sharing our joy, our pain, our burden and our story. Thank you for going out of your way in helping us and contributing to Nicks recovery (and my sanity!). Thank you for reading my blog so far. Thank you for being our friends.