“You are my soul mate” he said as he kissed me good night.
If you ever wonder how I’m holding up through all of this, just remember those words. I’m blessed and honored to be the one by his side. The trauma has passed, and soon too will the heartache and pain. And in the end I will never even think to question whether my sacrifices were worth it.
He had another cortisone shot in his tailbone today. If the results don’t show themselves after this treatment, we will not be going for a third. We are not giving any thought to that possibility though. Of course it’s going to help. Also, he has once again experienced some relief from the phantom pains. I think their presence serves as a measurement for the health of his mind. As soon as he began feeding his brain and soul positivity again, they disappeared. Our minds, and more specifically our thoughts, are more powerful in shaping our lives than we could ever imagine.
“We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world.” -Buddha (No, I’m not Buddhist. I just appreciate truth when I see it or hear it.)
Nick Fener 