As far as we are concerned, there is no such thing as June 27-30, 2011. Those days didn’t happen. Like a black hole, we are wiping it out of our memory. We’re back in Nick’s room at the rehab hospital, and he is napping peacefully. Kind of sad but true, but it felt like “coming home” when we got here today. Can’t even fathom how emotional I will be upon actually going home. But, so what about me? Nick’s the one who is going to come out of his skin to finally be home. But why am I even torturing myself with these thoughts? I want to just be in the moment.
On the topic of just “being”, Nick said something really cool today. He said that he has received God’s message loud and clear. That “this human-doing needs to slow down and become a human-being.” He said that now he is forced to just “be” instead of ‘do.’ This is extremely different for Nick. He is such a doer. The man never sits still. And now, he has been forced to sit semi still for 41 days. Tonight he also happily mentioned that this accident has completely changed his life, and not just in a physical way. His mind and his spirit are swelling and stretching, mainly through gratitude and acceptance. Every night before bed he spends a few minutes privately thanking me for being by his side. He has genuine conversation and sincerely thanks every single person who assists in his daily care, even the dudes who pick up his trash. It’s fun to watch, because I think a lot of the nurses and aides are used to getting yelled at and bossed around by angry patients. It’s probably refreshing for them to interact with Nick.
Today we decided that Nick needs a more exciting story. We’re tired of saying his parachute collapsed and he fell 50-100 feet. Yawn! Boring! Seriously, he gets asked, “what happened?” all the time, so its time to shake things up. Of course, this is purely for our own entertainment. I can’t wait to hear some of the stories he comes up with off the cuff when strangers approach him. My favorite so far is, “I had reeeeaaaaalllllyyy stinky feet!!”
Other ideas include: “At the zoo, you shouldn’t feed the lions with your feet.”
“They fell off”
“My girlfriend was going to leave me for a midget, and I had to do something!”