I’m literally writing this from Nicks bedside from my iPhone. Technology and modern medicine are so incredible. Nick would surely be dead had this happened only a mere 100 years ago. I do want to make it clear that he is not, nor has he ever been on life support. That would be against his wishes, which he laid out very clearly in an advanced healthcare directive only 2 months ago. I would never disrespect him like that.
So here he is, sleeping soundly at 5:30 am. They will likely be waking him up a little throughout the morning. They call it a sedation vacation. I just feel it is so incredibly important for me to be here to soothe his confusion and help re-orient him to this time and place. I think I’ve said this before, but I don’t know. Perhaps I need to be re-oriented to this time and place as well.
They actually postponed his wound wash-out surgery yesterday. Too busy in the OR. So they’re taking him today. The bummer about this, is that they held his feeding all day yesterday in anticipation of the procedure. Then didn’t do it. And now they’re holding his feeding again today. That’s just how they do it here, although I’ve heard there’s new thinking in the medical community about not stopping nutrition in order to keep patients strong and healthy.
His vitals are all healthy and stable and he is alot less swollen now than a few days ago. He looks good.
It feels so good to be next to his warm breathing body. Even if he’s all banged up, and we don’t know what long term damage he will have, it’s just so magical to kiss his face, rub his head, hold his hand and whisper in his ear. I am so grateful for this second chance. Even though life as we knew it will never ever be the same, there are so many paths to choose from in life. We’re just going to have a few less choices, that’s all. This tragic accident doesn’t have to kill his spirit, and that’s going to be my other big focus once he wakes up. Physical AND emotional healing.